When I was young, I'm sure my answer was something along the lines of a princess or a teacher. I actually remember living in our old house, setting all my stuffed animals up on my bed, and teaching them lessons daily. I made up assignments they had to do, graded them, and even had a "grade book" with all their grades in it.
When I got older, like high school older, and it came time to really answer that question my answer was a fashion designer, business owner, and teacher. I drew sketches of dresses on skinny bodies and colored them in, but realized I wasn't artistically talented.
When I applied for college, I applied with an education major. My SAT scores weren't the greatest and I was wait listed or accepted for the second semester to some of the schools. The school I went to wanted to see a semesters worth of grades before I could declare education so I went in as undeclared. Unfortunatly things did not go my way and finally 3 semesters later I declared a business management major.
I ended up loving business. I took a small business class and one of our semester assignments was to make a small business plan. I've never put so much work into an assignment in my entire life. It really made me realize that some day I hope/wish/dream to own my own business.
As far as teaching goes? I am not book smart at all and I have no problems admitting it, so holding only a 3.0 GPA would have never happened in college. I couldn't study to save my life. I was the queen of writing papers an hour before class and printing them out as I walked out the door. I partied a lot. I skipped class a lot. I was definitely not education major material.
Which brings me to now, November 2016 almost 2017 in a little over a month. What the hell am I doing with my life? I expected to have that all figured out by now but clearly I haven't.
I still want to own my own business. I want to get into the entertainment industry (who doesn't?!). I want to be on the radio. I want to be an author, I think I want this one more than anything right now. I want to be a wife. I want to be a stay at home mom. I want to be successful. I want to wake up everyday and be happy/excited for my career.
When will that happen? I have no idea. So for now I'll just keep on thinking of different things I could be doing, researching how to get into those things (because that's what I spend a lot of my free time doing ) and then closing those tabs on my phone hoping I'll forget about them.
I like to crush my own dreams. I'm sick, apparently.
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